[He hates that he had to kill just to live - no matter if he found terrible people to be his victim. Riley asks for no forgiveness on that front. Unlike his old pack companions, he always made sure to make it quick and never resorted to eating his victims but that still doesn't make him innocent.

Everything he did, he did for Fara. His reasons don't matter, nor does it matter that Riley no longer kills. It won't absolve him of his sins and he never asks to be.

A displeased snort.]

Oh yeah, fun. [So much sarcasm in his voice. It was like one long nightmare, more like. One he's gotten nearly free from but hasn't escaped entirely.

Just like now. A heavy sigh and Riley shifts his weight to the side.]

If I knew the answer to that, I wouldn't still be here. It keeps repeating. Ending with a door and red dust before starting all over again.